Hmmm... seriously theres far too much things in hand that i need to comment about... but i shall cover two issues every update...
As for today.. i learned something.. no i must correct myself.. its not a lesson just learned but rather this incident reinforces my urge and motivation to better myself as an english speaker... i have to become a more proficient speaker when 1st language is concerned...
it goes like this... a exhausting morning to began with due to ippt... had a 2.4 min run... i knew that everyone was anticipating a gold reward from me.. but i am aware that my limits wouldnt allow things to go smoothly.. got 5 pts for all the stations... and then comes the most critical station of all the 2.4km run.. sadly even with OHht's pacing and more accurately mdmtees cheering... i only managed to achieve a itiming of 10 flat mins... thats 16 sec from gold... honestly i m quite surprised and glad that after so long of no-training-army-days.. my gold is not very far from sight... speaking of the truth... if mdmtee had been the one to push me for 2.4.. i will definitely make it... she is person whom i respect most...
when we get to book out ard noon ... it became slightly more interesting... i took ken's car from camp all the way to kallang sports centre.. it was a weird experience for me since both me and the new officers since we dont know each other well...the only person i knew is ken... we didnt talk much to one another(me n the other officers whom i dont know)... next came the most exciting event of the day.. dragon boating!!...though it was a bit xiong.. it was never the less fun!! i had always thought that its just a simple boring and easy sports... after with i follow ken's car back to his awesome house... can see that he is dirt rich.. lol... haha.. anyway yes another awkward session with the new officers... seriously they are nice but just that not as good as darel or edwin... awkwardness arises due to blurred boundary... how much am i allowed to cross over.. i guess at the end of the day.. we all are just trying to make friends... it doesnt whether what rank we hold as long as we are peers ... and because of this i questioned myself once again.. y gave up the option of becoming someone better in position.. but i couldnt get an answer only till later part of the day...
Eventually all of us had arrived at sakura safra tamp as the programs for the day progress.. it was a wonderful meal.. the part that i have to highlight is from the ride home in mdmtee's car.. only me and terry the new officer had taken her car.. both of them were having a chat so long and intellectual that i think i can never sustain... fluent, engaging, and connecting and even seems enjoyable.. y .. y wasnt i granted this ability or skill to be able to express myself with ease... and thats y i decided that i must improve myself esp in these areas... talk confidently... present myself with pride and charisma.. that is only mean i see so far that could help me excel in my life... to fulfill to thirst for new achievements.. during the talk i was wondering y was i always left out of th conversation.... is it because the other person is an officer ... thats y he must outshine me? or just that it is because that she she simply prefers him over us.. and here came the ans for the earlier part of the day too.. its just a matter of choice of level of commitment ... we are made to do this... thus for some its they will put in their best while others will take it easy...it all depends on how much one enjoys it... and hence a matter of choice.. i know i can never bring myself to enjoy it.. haha... since thats the case.. we are indifferent... one who carries that title will have to bare more expectations from us... and thats his choice..it doesnt judge how good a person one is.. as it merely indicates their level of expectations form others in the organisation and i know mdmtee understands that.. of cause i will never deny the development the the school had bring about in them during the trainings...
its jus a shack and enjoyable day...
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