luxury

Today's topic is about luxury... hmmm sometimes its really confusing...what is a good balance to maintain between dreams and reality....

i once had this dream.. as in literally... the kind of dream you would have during your sleep... that i was someone else.. i couldnt see how the other me look like(Duh... i dont have a mirror with me in the dream.. and its a 1st person kind of dream) but... the whole feeling of myself and the environment is very different from the norm... i was a sec 3-4 boy living in seng kang.. i had a younger sister.. think for some reason ... probably we had angered our 'mum'.. that is why is refusing us entry back home as a form of punishment.. the point is.. i felt absolutely happy to be 'him' ... this only goes to shows that how unhappy i was with who i am.. and yes.. sometimes i really hope i can wake up to find myself not me anymore... its complex when i try to come out with reasons for such a thought and how i should go about solving this issue...


appearance.. self esteem... family...wealth... think these elements that contributed to how i see myself...

appearance.. yes i am working on it... and managed to achieve a well toned and better shaped figure...and still have lots of room for improvement.. method: a healthier diet... amino acid pills.. and regular workout.. complexion hmmm not very good... haaha... but still working on it... method: clarins mens' facial products...


self esteem ... a long way to go.. i always had this problem with communication and presenting myself... but i am working on it... though not impressive.. but i can see improvements... possession of new qualities that i never had... i began to like to greet people in the morning... knowing new people really sparks up my dull army life..also i am working seriously over my proficiency in the english language.. i have been doing grammar exercises ...err.. haha and actually that all... however the most worrying issue here is my spoken english.. its very very bad.. i always felt that both the self esteem and my command of the english language are intertwine...such that i cant speak good english is because of low self esteem.. and that i have low self esteem ie i cant present myself well is also because i cant speak english.. but will work on it..!

regarding family... think i have a near to perfect family.... but the only thing is that each of us are never customize to show one another how much we love one another...so much so that i never dare to show how precious they are to me.. maybe its not the only.. read on

wealth .. this is main issue that i wanna discuss in todays blog ..i had always hope to be a RMS or rich man son... reminding me of this always make me feel sad.. cos i know that its something that can never come true anymore.. and thats why i promise myself that i will and must lead a luxurious life that i always dreamt of .. buying branded goods.. driving luxurious car.. and living in a Maison... hahha... but of cause they are so easily said than actually carrying out it.. cause i wouldnt have the ability to do so...

least i think its a good start with the shopping trip to takashimaya with my family... we went to Louis vuitton(LV) .. she had always wanted to buy herself a lv baggie and wallet... it cost her SGD2500 in all... but for that kind of price we paid.. think the product and the service we received is excellent... i will recommend this particular whom i think is the best .. Gorden... he even bother to serve non potential customers..! while walking around with the huge LV brown shopping bag... we received a very unique treatment from the salesperson from TSC.. i saw the most number of smiles from them in just a couple of hours.. even from those whom we are not buying things from.. follow next.. my mum got me a Angus b. wallet.. it cost me.. $325.. the most ex wallet that i ever own.. but i really love it... the strong of leather .. and the design,,, simple but eyecatching..

in just that single trip i seriously felt as if i am on the top of the earth... almost enjoyimg every single seconds.. guess i am just being shallow and materialistic... but that is just what i want.. soon after that i fell in love with fashion and branded things...

to conclude.. i will work harder towards liking myself.. by improving my life and enjoying how to be me... i must be in full control of the direction of my life..!